I am exhausted this morning from another night of insomnia. It wasn't as bad as usual though as Phil was awake too so we watched "The Running Man" in the middle of the night. It is shocking how bad the selection of TV viewing is at 3am, it's almost as if people are expected to be asleep at that time! It is also shocking how the writers thought that some of the one-liners in that movie were funny!
Amber: (after Richards cut Buzzsaw in half with a chain saw) "What happened to Buzzsaw?"
Ben Richards: (Arnie) "He had to split."
Really?! Ha ha! You just have to love those 80's movies.
I also have to confess to being a little hung over too as that one glass of wine that I had planned with my Indian meal turned into three (ok, ok four), oops! So even though I have a fuzzy head and am very tired I have decided that today I CHOOSE to be happy.
When you have a chronic illness one of the things that you don't want to hear is that it "could be worse". Even though the person that says it is usually well meaning, it makes you want to high five them, in the face, with a chair (I have to admit to seeing that "high five" saying somewhere but it made me chuckle and I can relate so I have borrowed it to make my point)!
However, the reality is that it COULD be worse.
I have a lot to be grateful for. I am head-over-heels with an amazing man who has been by my side every step of the way with 100% support. He makes me laugh and is the most caring, loving man I have ever known (and on top of that he has a really nice bum). My children are healthy, happy and fill my heart with pride and joy. I have the love and support of my family (in particular the best sister in the world) and I am surrounded by wonderful friends (both new and old).
I am lucky that I get to run my own business and work from home. I can do this in my pyjamas if I want to and even (with my laptop in front of me) watch the Jeremy Kyle show at the same time. If THAT show doesn't make you feel good about your life then nothing will!
Yes my body is going through a little rebellious stage, so what? I won't let it get to me today.
I am going to ignore the numbness, tingles and zingers in my body. I will say to them (in my head, don't want to look like the crazy lady talking to herself) "you are not going to get me down today, I am going to pretend you are not there".
If I get tired this afternoon after I get my work done then I will allow myself to rest without feeling guilty. I am going to count my blessings today rather than worry about or focus on what ails me.
Life is good and so I will smile and focus on what is positive in my world. Today I am the pigeon.
So enough about me, how are YOU?
I love that you "CHOOSE" to have a good day! In light of all the pain, I tell myself to find that light...and when I focus on what is light rather than dark in my life I see an abundance of things that lift my heart and soul. You have the light today and see how much better you feel...blessings to you!
ReplyDeleteShoot, Karen, live on the wild side and if you get tired BEFORE your work is done, don't wait for that nap. Do it when the urge hits, you definitely need your sleep.
ReplyDeleteSome good vibes coming through todays. I did laugh at the pidgeon joke. We call our no1 at work here the pidgeon because he flys in, poos over everything and then exits, leaving us to clean up the mess.
ReplyDeleteI admire your determination to be happy in spite of everything. I'm happy but bloomin tired today so not going to fight it and off for a 'power nap' as they say.
Keep up the good work, and remember you'll go blind staring at Phil's bum too much. But if it is spectacular then what a way to go!