MS Girl

Good Morning Bleeps.

I am sitting her watching Morning TV and Miss Piggy and Kermit are being interviewed. I have always LOVED Miss Piggy and her sassy attitude, I actually can't wait to see the new movie when it comes out. I guess some of us never grow up.

So anyhoo, Muppets aside today I come to you with a mixed bag of feelings but I am going to try to focus on the positive as much as I can otherwise those of you that don't know me personally will start to think I am a right old miserable bag (those of you that are close friends or family already know this as a fact but it is nice to keep up somewhat of a front, right?).

As you know from yesterday's blog (what do you mean you didn't read it? Flipping liberty, go read it now!) you will know that I woke up with a toothache. A couple of extra strong pain killers later and I felt OK. Actually I felt better than OK, I felt good.

I took my shower and waited for the exhaustion that this simple task usually sparks but nope, nothing. I felt the same post-shower as I did pre-shower. Hmmm. I got dressed, applied make-up and even dried my hair, all in ONE go. Still, no bone-crushing fatigue. Odd.

I came downstairs and it suddenly dawned on me that for the first time in a long time I felt like my old self ("old" self as in "young and lovely" self of course). I almost didn't know what to do or how to feel about this sudden change in events, so I decided to clean. I cleaned the house from top to bottom and bearing in mind that we live in a four storey town house, this is no small thing! I vaccuumed the carpets (stairs and all), cleaned the kitchen, mopped floors, did laundry, cleaned bathrooms, took out the rubbish (garbage) and dusted/polished surfaces. After all that, I still had energy.

I went on to cook a roast pork dinner and when I finally sat down to relax with a glass of wine and Phil, I still felt fine. I was tired but I was normal person tired. I was facebooking with my lovely friend Jenni, a fellow MSer, and I excitedly told her about my day and that I was feeling normal person tired and she totally got it. I am sure she won't mind me telling you that she felt a similar feeling of happiness when she was able to iron her clothes, she said she told everyone. Maybe non MSers will find this hard to understand but when you usually get exhausted from simple, everyday tasks it is a big deal when you get a glimpse of your former self. For me, it was exciting and it gave me hope that I will get more days like that.

My day was made even better last night when I got a text from a very close family member to say that his cancer is still in remission, another big deal since he was only given six months to live when he was diagnosed nine years ago. I am SO thankful for the trial drug that they offered him way back then and his positive attitude that has helped him keep the evil that is CML away.

When I went to bed my symptoms decided to come back with a vengeance. My legs were heavy, I was having electric shocks in my tongue (a new sensation that was making me jump out of my skin) as well as the ice-cube in my brain, which I hate, hence the mixed bag that I mentioned at the beginning. Having said that I told myself to be happy and grateful for the respite that I had during the day, to celebrate the good and to not focus on the negative.

So, all in all yesterday was a good day. May there be many, MANY more not just for me but for all of you too.

So enough about me, how are YOU?